Blogging again....

I have had a couple of good friends gently remind me that I haven't written anything on my blog in a while so here it goes...

I have a birthday coming up this week and I'm going to be 38 years old. I'm not sure what 38 is supposed to feel like, but I feel good. I think when you approach your 40's you have had enough life experience to wish that maybe you had done some things different in your life. Well, I'm no exception. I've recently had some thoughts and wished that I had made some different choices in my life, however as soon as I get to thinking about how I wish I had done some things different, I remember that I am who I am today because of the choices I made and the things I lived through.

I think back to where I was 20 years ago. I was just getting ready to graduate high school, I was working part-time at Hardees (lots of fun stories there), partying on the weekends, I was getting ready to turn down a marriage proposal, and I was getting ready to loose a dear friend from a terrible accident. The man who made the marriage proposal and the friend who died were one in the same. I was thinking about Richard today. I blamed myself for a long time when he died. I always wished that I had been with him the day he drowned at the lake. He had invited me to go with him and I told him no. I had some excuse of hanging out with other friends or something. I know now that it was my fate not to be there with him and it was his fate to die so young. That's just the way life is sometimes. Anyway, this brings me to my point, we can always wish that we had done something different in life, but we are the choices that we make. I think we are faced with choices everyday and based on that we develop our characters and fate.

Updates on other things in my life:

Still not smoking. Almost 1 year. Feb 22,2008 is my anniversary!

My cousin who has cancer is back in the hospital. I saw her right before Christmas and she seemed to be doing well, but she is very sick again. I remember before my Mom passed away, she had a few good weeks where we thought she just may make it, then after that she got very ill and passed away. I have to be honest though, as sad as it makes me to think of Melissa dying, I have another side that wants her to go. I know that she is tired because I can see it in her eyes. I believe that she will be in Heaven after she passes away and as hard as her not being alive is for her family, I know that the thought of her no longer suffering and being sick will be a comfort to them after she is gone.

I will try not to have such a long break in between blogs for my fans that keep asking me to update. :) Take care and thanks for sharing some of your time with me.....Jenni